Sad

Not quite grief stricken. It was really great to catch up with an old friend today. It was fun. But I am really aching for my husband. It makes me remember how empty I felt before Mike came into my life. It was so full with him.

 I guess making it thru the ER visit and the Holiday is finally backlashing on me.

I can't say my life is empty. But my heart aches...there is a big empty place there that Mike took with him. Seeing this friend reminded me of all the total jerks I dated before Mike and how lucky I am he found me. But it wasn't enough time. I hope there is someone else out there who can love me as I am. But if not, I have great memories.

Grief sucks